I’ve Lost You Only to Discover That I Have Gone Missing
“An extraordinarily moving piece that somehow evokes dementia – what it is to have it, to live it, to see it in someone you love – in all its tangled complexity and rawness, with occasional moments of quite sublime tenderness“.
Pippa Kelly, Award winning journalist
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Supported by Arts Council England I’ve Lost You Only to Discover That I have Gone Missing is created in collaboration with composer, Jill Halstead and dancers: Luke Birch, Maria Olga Palliani, Takeshi Matsumoto, Aneta Zwierzynska and actor/singer Chiara De Palo.
Now in development for a full length production and supported by Arts Council England, Surrey Arts and Dance 21, the work weaves personal, social and medical taboos about loss, intimacy and embodied resistance that the artistic team have encountered throughout the process of creating bespoke material during the Participatory Dances. Beatrice Allegranti’s creative process is a unique blend of choreography and dance movement psychotherapy principles blending interview text and conversation, movement metaphor and theatrically thought provoking and politically progressive material.
Dance Theatre Work-in-Progress Performances International Tour 2017-2019
The work in progress was performed in a variety of venues both traditional black box spaces as well as including an art gallery, a Library and a 15th Century Tower at the following events: Open Senses Festival (May 2017); Babel in Bloom (June 2017); Crouch End Festival (June 2017); Psychoanalysis and Creativity Conference, University of Canterbury (November 2017); Merton Arts Space (December); Alexandra Palace, Transmitter Hall (December); Wellcome Collection (May 2017 & February 2018); Michaelis Theatre, University of Roehampton (March 2018); commission – Bergen International Festival (May 2018), Utrecht Centre for the Arts (March 2019).
Utrecht Centre for the Arts & GRACE, 2019
Photos: Martha Kamminga
This performance was the last work-in-progress before the company went into scaling up the production. The performance was in partnership with GRACE 2019 where Beatrice Allegranti also gave a keynote titled ‘Moving Kinship: towards corporeal cultures of equality’. The keynote and the performance received a formal response from the distinguished poet and professor of poetry and comparative literature at the University of the Philippines.
“…Yesterday’s performance has been a great blessing for me.Among other things what it has concretized—and evoked—is the idea of kin/aesthetic healing as a kind of restorative dignity and personal connectedness that the arts do, now and then, in the best instances, bequeath to those who experience it. It was also quite moving to see—as it were—our keynote’s “theory” theatrically enfleshed, and to sense the trajectory of its dramatic movement, which is the slow dissolution of the boundary between carer and sufferer, the “well” lover and the “ill” beloved. As the piece progresses, we understand that the two are slowly and painfully becoming one, at once both suffering and caring, until what we bear witness to is the penultimate image of the dancers linking hands and moving like one scintillant wave, becoming the same finite form, whose common burden—embodiment, which we may also call life—is at once also the common but entirely precious and irreplaceable gift”.
Neil Garcia, Poet and Professor, University of the Phillipines, Diliman, Quezon City.
Bergen International Festival – Bergen Culture Centre, May 2018
Tech Rehearsal Photos: Beatrice Allegranti
This event took place in collaboration with the Socially Engaged Arts research project at the University of Bergen. A pre-performance talk took place with Beatrice Allegranti and composer, Jill Halstead.
Michaelis Theatre, 22nd March 2018
Photos: Thomas Line
This event included a pre-performance lecture about the interdisciplinary choreographic research taking place alongside the project.
‘The Sanskrit work ‘anukampa’ came to mind. It translates as ‘compassion’ but its literal meaning is ‘to shake with’. It really speaks to me of deep empathy that is so strong that one can’t help but to shake with another in suffering’ (Dance Artist)
‘I was astounded at the beautiful choreography and performance that you produced. The way you spoke at the beginning was so heartfelt and warming; and so beautiful to hear the stories of people with dementia‘ (Dance Student)
The Wellcome Hub, 23rd February 2018
Photos: Jason Read
This Dementia Friendly performance was followed by a workshop for people living with young onset dementia and their families.
‘’ A visceral struggle to connect. The power of dance and primitive sound’ (Carer for partner living with dementia)
Alexandra Palace – Transmitter Hall, 9th December 2017
Photos: Julia Testa
The performance at Alexandra Palace included a pre-performance workshop for the audience.
‘Taking part in the workshop and seeing the dance, I have a multi-dimensional, profound resonance with early onset dementia‘ (Psychotherapist)
‘I found the workshop to be very thought provoking and at times quite emotional. It was lovely to see dementia sufferers and their families/carers participating at different levels inthe movement therapy. The workshop helped me identify the difficulties someone with dementia encounters and the performances emphasised responses to all the sufferer’s different stories and experiences’ (Carer for relative living with dementia).
Merton Arts Space, 2nd December 2017
Photos: Julia Testa
The performance at Merton Arts Space included a pre-performance workshop for the audience.
‘The performance allowed me to link my own experiences to other families’ experiences and gain a deeper insight,’ (Carer for partner living with dementia)
‘During the workshop improvisation, I had a sense of unity, connection and shared mutual feelings within the group,’ (Dance student)
Psychoanalysis, Creativity and Education Conference, 24th November 2017
Photos: Julia Testa
This event included a pre-performance lecture about the artistic and psychotherapeutic relevance of this work in the context of psychoanalysis.
‘I was moved by the collection of stories – beautiful and hugely thought provoking’ (Psychoanalysis Scholar)
‘Stunning’ (Psychoanalytic Psychotherapist)
‘Left humbled, inspired and affected – deepest thanks’ (Psychotherapist and educator)
Babel in Bloom, June 2017
Photos: Julia Testa
‘I know Beatrice as a collaborator, a scholar, an academic, a therapist, a feminist and a thinker. Beatrice explicitly grounds her academic work in movement; to work with Beatrice is to move with her. I have seen and read work produced by Beatrice and I’ve been touched by it in the past, but experiencing her work performed live genuinely moved me. Beatrice combines the complex and the simplistic to ground an emotional experience in moving bodies. In seeing the performance one is engaged viscerally, somatosensorily and kinaestheticly. Your attention is dragged dynamically across the stage in subtle and complex ways that somehow engages an emotional response about a subject that remains somewhat hidden, or at least under the surface. As the dynamic unfolds and interaction between the movers intensifies and becomes more complex you feel increasingly part of the performance. This is of course brought together by the musical component of the performance that manages to engage, even further, an embodied response. The performance left me deeply moved in every sense of the word; affectively, kinaesthetically and cognitively’ (Dr. Jonathan Silas, Cognitive Neuroscientist, Middlesex University).
Open Senses, May 2017
Photos: Aidan Orange
This event included a post performance talk.
‘Incredible. Breathtaking. I’ve been thinking a lot about embodied experience and through the work that you shared and the ensuing conversation, it started to fall into place at a deeper level of understanding for me. I think that was because is became something experiential and emotional rather than an intellectual process – which of course makes complete sense! It also felt like a relief, somehow, as though I was being reminded of something rather than learning something new‘ (Julian West, Wellcome Hub)
‘With the collaboration of great artists and a committed team work, through what seems to me as a combination of activism and art (dance, music, theatre and film), Beatrice Allegranti delivers powerful messages appealing to all our senses and emotions….let’s celebrate Beatrice Allegranti Dance Theatre’s amazing art work which creates awareness on mental health, as it matters to all of us‘ (Alejandra Benitez Silva, GRACE Researcher, Gender & Cultures of Equality in Europe, European Commission Horizon).
Photos: Julia Testa
This dementia-friendly studio performance was followed by a workshop for people living with young onset dementia and their families.